Today I went online for awhile and looked at adoption stuff and adoptive parents' profiles. This is not the first time I've done nor will it be the last. Justin and I have been struggling with infertility for a long time. Years. But we've been seeing a fertility specialist since November, 2007. I had surgery for endometriosis, progesterone tests, and I've been on ovulation drugs ever since. Justin has a problem with low motility. We've had two IUI (intrauterine insemination) procedures, both unsuccessful. The doctor recommends going through six before we discuss other options.
This is obviously something that has brought us a lot of heartache and tears. We've had many prayers on this subject about what to do and how to have a family with children. There are three ways this could turn out: 1) One of the future IUI's is successful 2) We will need to progress to in vitro fertilization and hope that is successful or 3) adopt. Finances are another tricky matter since my insurance coverage doesn't pay for one penny of any of this. So part of me just wants to do the most aggressive (and more expensive) things that will insure that we can have a child. By the time we do six IUI's, that's several thousand dollars. Then if we do in vitro, that usually ranged from $12,000 to $20,000, and it's not guaranteed. We may need to do it more than once. Adoption, though still expensive, is somewhat more affordable through LDS family services. Another concern is that I have a sister who has had multiple miscarriages. She's had four miscarrages and doctors haven't been able to figure it out yet. I am concerned that Justin and I may go to all these lengths and expenses to get pregnant, and then I can't keep a pregnancy.
So, one of the main aspects of my prayers of late is to know what to do that will be the most cost effective and successful. I keep leaning towards adoption. I've always wanted to adopt, even before we struggled with infertility. I would be very excited for that. I think, though, we will give the IUI's a couple more chances.