Before I get started, let me say I know I live a very lovely life. I am happy, safe, secure, free, well-fed, and a lot of other blessed things. I think gratitude and attitude are really important.
But there are those days when you just have to wish upon a star.
And here are my wishes.
I wish my bedroom were, like, 10 square feet bigger - that our bed with a massive, solid wood headboard didn't have to go in front of our window and block all air flow and trap us inside in case of a fire.
I wish the rear view mirror in my car didn't come off the windshield every time I adjusted it.
I wish my garage door worked and I didn't have to open and close it manually every day.
I wish my refrigerator shelves weren't broken and sagging.
I wish the blasted cottonwood trees in my backyard were any other species of tree that didn't sprout low-hanging branches faster than a rodent reproduces.
I wish I had my tax refund back from the IRS.
I wish I could afford to get my hair colored.
I wish I didn't have to put my new tires purchase on my credit card.
I wish I had an office at work instead of a cubicle - the one I used to have but was unceremoniously booted from when I was on maternity leave two years ago.
I wish my birds wouldn't squawk when I try to sleep in.
I wish my dog didn't shed.
I wish my cat wasn't nocturnal.
I wish I didn't have to color in the flaking finish on my fairly new dining room table with black permanent marker.
I wish the plug mechanism in my sink worked.
I wish my transmission didn't have a leak.
I wish I didn't need new brakes on my car.
I wish my computer had, like, a trillion gigs of memory because it's always full.
Okay. Even I am getting tired of my own whining. There are those moments, though, when it feels like everything is broken, or outdated, or barely functional and I just want to scream or cry or maybe even laugh because I am on the edge of hysterics. Someday, I will be ahead of repairs instead of always playing catch-up. I hope.
Since I've been whiny, I grant you permission to do the same. What do you wish were better/different in your life?